I've been experiencing a state of spiritual aphasia if that makes sense. But thank God for the bouts of lows that have gripped me for the bulk of rural rotation and past 3 years. I probably have lived in my own little world. In Jesus name,  I believe they have been surrendered and overcomed.

Recent state of aphasia cos the times I read bible verses, I dont feel God speaking to me as much.

How I wish for the NUS CCC days when life was spiritually transforming.

Read them, wrote them, verbalised them, prayed over them. But nothing's coming in. I sense the season to persevere and remain still. The need to pray more.