With time, I began more frustrated with myself and came across Pete's videos from FMSP. They were truly inspiring and nostalgic as I went through each video. I missed those days when the children greeted "Good Morning Mr Loh"
Alvin asked why I didnt choose to stay back as a teacher and I began to ponder. I shall be very frank.. :)
1) I've always wanted to be a doctor. The first thing that came to mind thingy.. And God opened doors that I cant reject.
2) My then-gf was an aspiring to-be-teacher whom I felt I couldnt match up to. She was passionate in every aspect of teaching and imparting values. And I thought one teacher in the household is enough, if I were to ever marry her. Probably silly, and maybe ego-istic too.
3) It's always a joy teaching kids, but I know, it's only temporary.
Drank Corona which read 4.9% just because because.. And I thought I would fall into a deep sleep... much longer than my 9 hours of usual sleep..
The eyes and face became redder and warmer and chest became tighter.. And then I slept.
I woke up at 4am and felt a central tugging on my chest, as if God's asking me to do sth with my life. Not fruitful, nor edifying. I was immediately reminded of the days in SG before I came. Full of purpose and "action" every day. I believe this is the work of the Lord. I miss SG and He wants me to bring those sense of purpose to Brisbane. There is work to be done here.. and now
I prayed and took out the bible and "Becoming Disciples thru Bible Study" materials and read.
ODB was so apt. as if God was speaking to me directly.
It read from Psalms 63
O God, You are my God; early will I seek You; my soul thirsts for You; my flesh longs for You in a dry and thirsty land where there is no water.
Let’s get back on track and pursue an increasingly closer walk with God!
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